Some time we do thing subconsciously as to start the HEALING process, that which we all must do in order to survive. I used to go looking for PICS of myself when I was five years old (my main memory of the past - wanted to die since I was five) - as to try to remember, so that I could deal with it all and then eventually heal from my deep inner wounds.

YOU are on the right path of true healing from within..... Hang in there.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

P.S.
Check out the two books that I placed in the Rate & Review section.... they greatly helped me to let go and they were suggested by my T.