It's true, for me right now my mind is a really hazy uncertain place but when I cut it's like I'm cutting through the fog in my mind and for just a second . . . I can see.
I know that alot of cutters wish to stop cutting and they don't like that they do but for me I am proud of the scars produced by my cutting. I don't want to stop, for I know that I am not going to kill myself, I know that I am not going to to die from infection or from cutting in a wrong place because when I cut I treat them immediately so that they won't be infected and I stay away from the veins throughout my body (and I steralize my razors before and after I use them)
So you see to me cutting is as normal as a person brushing their hair, for me it's comforting and natural, and I hope that maybe one day other people will accept this (like my mom -_-)
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I may have many problems, but I shall not allow that to stop me from LIVING.
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