Nelliecat, I have to tell you when I read what your husband said, my response was absolute rage and to actually say out loud, "Jesus Christ what an asshole!" I think I dislike your husband worse than mine right now, and that's saying something. Doubting ourselves is something that happens to almost all survivors of childhood sexual abuse. We DO NOT need someone else doubting us once we finally decide to tell. Shutting it away and trying to forget it is what makes us depressed, or as pbutton says, weird. Once we address it, hopefully we can heal. Please keep trying.