Seriously, huge thanks to everyone who noticed my distress. It means so much to me and at such a difficult time too. I know many others go through really rough spells in their therapy too, and I read about them, and notice, and relate to them too.

This is about the least awful thing that's happened with my T this last month. There were some bad moments during the last appointment too. The last month and a bit has been so hard and I've fought with everything to fix it, but it's not working. I just wanted this last session to be okay...so I could be okay for the break. When it wasn't okay, I tried to fix it in a way that was okay with T, with the text. And after everything...her response...it was just too much.

Likelife, you really made my morning, to wake up and see your heartfelt message back to me (even if T isn't capable of giving me one or hearing mine)!

Lauru, that was about the kindest, nicest thing anyone could have said to me at the moment. I haven't stopped crying since I read it, because it's been so painful that I've been forgotten by T so many times, received so much of her anger, and been so dismissed, even though I've fought so hard to stay so positive...and then to be noticed so kindly by you, it means a lot. A lot.

Just wanted to say thanks everyone. Thanks for noticing.