the problem is it gets worse. You make all these requirements, but as the addiction gets worse, which it will, you make new boundaries. One day the cuts you make arnt going to give you release. You'll need to go deeper or do mor. You'll need the release and be away from your sterilized tools. but that will be okay. You'll set a new line. You'll get to close to a vein some day and scare yourself. You'll swear to never do it that badly again. but you will, and worse. how do I know. because when I first got on here almost 10 yrs ago, I said the exact same things that you did, and I've heard it a hundred times over. and you will probably read this (& hopefully "before you make the first cut" poem) and think you will be different, just like I did when others warned me. I just hope you manage to quit before you die from it.