I'll keep it brief. I'm addicted to porn, sex, and alcohol, and my wife just found evidence of the first two, and deals with the third. I'm at work and she says we have to talk tonight. We have two kids. I'm afraid she's going to leave me. I'm afraid I've ruined our family and irrevocably hurt the people I love most in this world - a list that does not include myself. I am so unhappy and repulsed by myself I want to crawl out of my own skin. I know this is heavy, but ai just had to vent. I hope it's okay. I want to get better and live my life like a normal human being without secrets and shame.