ickydog Is right. It won't stay the same. Cutting will escalate whether it takes a few months or a few years. No matter how much care you take to make sure everything is clean, you can still get an infection. Look at in hospital surgeries. Everyone in the room is sterile and the room is sterilized, yet every year, people die from post surgical infections.

Not all nerves are large enough to see with the naked eye. There is no way for you to know if you are going to hit one. Even if you study an anatomy book, realize that there are small differences in individuals as to what nerves and vessels go where.

The reason the cutting makes you feel good is because of endorphins. They are a "natural high" chemical your body releases in response to pain. My guess is that you are addicted to that high. Eventually, you will develop a tolerance to the high, and need to cut deeper to acheive the same feeling. It really is no different than taking a drug to feel better, except that there isn't a law about self cutting.

I understand how you would feel defensive when we tell you things like that. Had someone said that to me when i started, I probably would have felt defensive too. Now I am stuck with scars that need explaining, odd sensations, and no way to undue the damage I've done.

Sam2