(((((( OrangeMoira ))))) Lol I love your idea of rewarding yourself for posting every day for two weeks - I hope you can keep it up! It's so easy to feel like a right idiot especially when posts are left hanging or unacknowledged but it's worth persevering I think.

I'm sorry you're feeling so down on yourself about work though - unfortunately I can relate to the self blame and guilt

Silentycrying - maybe your tears needn't be so silent if you can reach out some. Sorry that sounded really pretentious didn't it? Just wanting to connect really. Not sure if feeling worse than a pregnant woman refers to how you feel physically, or emotionally, or maybe both?

As for me - feeling noxiously crap - self hate self blame and general frustrated powerlessness overwhelming me. I hate it that my problems are all my fault my doing my creation and even knowing that, nothing changes .

And I hate it that I feel so rubbish especially coming up to Christmas. Feeling alienated and alone and trapped inside my terrifying head. Ack