another bad day

went four days without checkin the comp. now my head is telling me he is up to somthing ,why can't i trust him ,why did i doubt him in the first place,why am i so paranoid, was it all the domestic voilence booze induced episodes, or is this my life from such an early age where men abused their trust with me !!!!

i wish i could not be so paranoid, i wish i could trust,but i trust no-one