Thanks so much again Two Sons, and Orange Moira for replying. I'm sorry it's taken me ages to get back here, it's not avoidance this time it's just the fact that for some reason I got incredibly busy these last couple of days - had a T session which exhausted me and a Pdoc appointment that cut my day into pieces and then a full day's Christmas shopping - so finally I make it back here when I meant to reply much earlier.

((((( Two Sons ))))) I'm so sorry you're experiencing such difficulties at work - it must be hell to have a position of responsibility like that when all you want to do is run away and hide. Does it get any easier, or do you struggle with it all the time?

So you're been seeing a P for four years, that's a long time. Interesting that you don't feel you will ever get better (at the moment I have to say that's exactly how I feel, pretty hopeless right now .) Do you trust your P? Does s/he understand how you feel generally? I ask what might sound like silly questions but I've had Ts before who really had no idea about what was going on in my head, despite my being really careful to explain it all to them as clearly as I could, and so they never really helped, I just ended up talking round and round in circles and feeling worse and worse. I hope your P isn't like that and does have a good grasp of your issues.

I hope you do come back and post some more, I'd be interested to hear your story . Thanks for replying

Torn