I'm in so much physical pain right now, Jen, than the whole world looks black to me. I wonder whether you are hurting so much from all you've lost that that pain is making you look ugly to you as the world looks ugly to me.

Pain that goes so deep and never seems to stop affects everything. I'm trying to understand (with my pdoc's held) that what I see isn't true. I don't think what you're seeing is true, either. * gentle hugs *