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shortandcute · Dec 22, 2012, 11:14 PM

I recently remembered something that I had forgotten about. This incident happened about 30 years ago, and has a little bit of a backstory to it.
When I was in my last couple years of high school, I was living with my oldest sister, whom I'll call "Joy." She and her husband had just become Christians, and I eventually became one also. I was dating someone who, at first seemed nice, but then I noticed something not quite right about him. I couldn't quite put my finger on anything specific, but I knew I'd be sorry if I stayed with him. So I broke up with him. "Joy" felt sorry for him, and demanded that I call him up and tell him I wanted him back. So like an ididot, I did; but as time went on, my suspicions proved to be right. He became verbally and emotionally abusive, and eventually physically also. I tried breaking up with him several times, but he would stalk me, or make me feel guilty. I tried talking to my sister about it, but she convinced me that it was just the devil trying to break us up because "God wanted us together." (I figured out later that she just wanted me to stay with him because he was buying my clothes, food, and other necessities and they didn't want to have to do it but they didnt allow me to work either.)
Anyway, things Got so bad, that I finally had to sit my brother-in-law down and told him that I COULD NOT MARRY THIS PERSON! BUT, then my BIL started acting like God was talking to him, then said, "Well, the Lord says you have to." Like an idiot, I believed him--I was very intimidated by my sis and BIL. Well, I did marry him and we were living on the streets, and I was being beaten and sexually abused by him. Of course, my 3rd oldest sister (I'll call Janey) was extremely jealous of me because I was married and she was not. She was constantly berating me in front of my husband, which only made things worse. She constantly told me that if I was just more submissive and loving, that my hubby would stop beating me, find a job, and get us into a house. she also flirted with him alot. Well one time, we were going to have a family get together for Christmas. HUbby and I were going to ride in with Janey. Hubby and I got into an argument. But I wanted it to stop, so I was getting ready to apologize but Janey was hovering over me. I told her that I wanted to talk privatly to hubby, but then she started screaming at me, and telling me that i better nice, to stop picking on him, etc. So I screamed bakc at her and told that I was just going to apologize to him, and brought up her flirting with him all the time, the I told her, "YOU CAN HAVE CUZ I SURE DON'T WANT!!!" Just then she grabbed me, and hitting me (Im the small one in the family-4' 9" and was only 90 pounds at the time) then she dragged me to the bed and started choking me. Fortunately my husband eventually (after laughing about it in the other room) came and pulled her off of me. Funny thing is, she doesnt remember that. I had pushed it back in my head, but lately its been coming up and the anger is resurfacing.
Sorry for the ultra long post.