I didn't start going to therapy until I was in 6th grade, but I knew that something was seriously wrong with me around age 7.

1.) Incest and intense shame occurred when I was 6, my brother was 9 y.o.

2.) Same year, I made major sexual advances towards another first-grader. We were caught by his mom & she kicked me out of their house.

3.) Constant moving of homes and schools continued year after year ~ extreme shyness made me a major loner in school. Intense fights in my house continued, as did my intense nightmares.

4.) In 3rd grade, I was abducted by a psychotic man, holding a big knife towards me (in the middle of nowhere). He made sexual advances towards me in an old burned down house ~ and I tried to run free. He ran after me & forced me into his car. At the first sign of businesses and people, I jumped out after he made a left-hand turn.

5.) Horrible, intense fights occured at parents house as well as at extended family's homes.

~ I seriously wanted to die!
~ I blamed myself for not being able to stop the intense rages others got into.
~ I couldn't stand the horrible memories of sexually explicit behavior at such a young age. I HATED myself!!
~ I felt SO lonely and misunderstood by everyone. I didn't "fit in" anywhere.
~ I felt like an adult stuck in a kid's body and hated it with a passion.