I disagree about being worthless. You're raising four children, I mean, wow!! That alone is impressive to me. Personally speaking, I think being a mum and bringing up children healthy and well-adjusted is one of the most important things anyone could do. Its not easy!

As for people being mad with you, then for me they are not making you and your feelings important. They are in their own way, contributing to you feeling depressed. So it becomes a vicious circle. You know what? You do not need to listen to these people. They may not understand how it feels to be depressed. I also agree with Rapunzel about them being frightened and I don't suppose they know what to say.

Have you ever thought about therapy? It can help so very much with a good therapist. He or she may be able to help you understand that you're not a worthless person and help you try to lift yourself out of this depression. The other thing that can be valuable is short-term medication, something to help you along your way.

Please please do not listen to these people. You're going through a tough time, please hang on to that thought - anyone who's lost a couple of homes and is bunking down with family, has the responsibility of four children, well, its hard! With help and a bit of work, you may just be able to help get yourself on a more even keel.

Hugs to you.