Bless your heart. I can certainly understand being depressed this time of year. Trying to bring a good Christmas to 4 kids must be very difficult! I hope the father is being of help! If not, make sure the friend of the court knows they're know paying you child support!

And if family is contributing to your depression, they certainly have never been depressed, have they! Or else they forgot what it felt like! They're being very cruel -- and treating family like that is horrid. They should be more understanding and willing to listen. By demeaning you like that is just making your depressing that much worse!

Sweetie, you ARE a worthy person! I'm sure you're not homeless because you WANT to be. That's absurd! But honey to think you're a waste of flesh is also absurd, because God made you and He does NOT make junk! You are a precious child of God -- He loves you. You CANNOT hate yourself when God loves you! If God feels your worthy and precious, how can you be worthless, a waste of human flesh, and have no purpose? God put you here for a reason! And you have to find that reason -- it might take you some time, but it's out there somewhere. lol Please don't give up on yourself, my friend. You are a vital person in this human race - you MUST believe that! Things won't always be this way.

If you're not in therapy, see about getting into it. Talk to your social worker, and see what can be done, okay? In the meantime, you'll remain in my prayers. I wish the very best for you -- God bless and please take good care of YOU! BIG HUGS and Happy holidays! Lee