I take my meds daily. I was first diagnosed as MDD as well, and then eventually that diagnosis was changed to bipolar. Too many hospitalizations and mental breakdowns later, I came to the realization that I need the meds. I cannot afford to keep being in the hospital or to be without a job since I support myself. I eventually found a doc that gave me a good 'cocktail' and I've been good ever since, well I did have to tweak it once. For me, the person that I am when I'm on the meds is more stable, more fun to be around, and a success. I like who I am when I'm unmedicated as well, but the emotional headache I had to deal with was overwhelming. My parents always worried, and I always worried what I would do to myself. In order to accomplish my goals, I stay on my meds. I don't feel too different, and I think its a matter of finding the right doctor, the right medications, and the right dosage. Which isn't easy, I know. I'm sure I'm not the only person who has tried a multitude of medications. But I feel as if I am somewhat normal, with a few 'malfunctions' here and there.