From an abusive family and survived from depression difficult relationships....I m now trying to recover the sense as a woman, but i feel it is not easy....
i was used as objects as a tool, if i want to sense a feeling a true sense instead of a tool, i need to find a door to that....
I used to put beautiful clothings cosmetics on my body in order to attract the males, but i dont want to do that anymore, i want to be a real inner peaceful and inner beautiful woman, i need to feel i m a real woman instead of a machine a programed doll....
I want to experience a true romance instead of a drama a fake story,
i want to truely feel the feeling to be praised as a pretty female and i want to hold on that feeling instead of shame,
But it is so difficult,i dont know why?
can i get recovery from this dark corner?
can i embrace life embrace myself again, can i truely feel the body as a woman and feel proud of her?
can i truely like my own face without make up....and also with make up....and how?
can i buy myself a good skirt to please myself and truely enjoy that ,
can i cook for myself and not feel eating is just a task to fulfill?