Hey Torn,
I'm undiagnosed, myself. But I fit AvPD almost completely. I relate to a lot of what you said. It's a struggle for me to keep in contact with everyone..even though I really want to. I go to send a text to a friend asking if they would want to hang out..then I realize they probably wouldn't want to, so I don't send it. Whenever I do get out and hang with a friend, I enjoy it. But if it involves a group (sometimes even more than one person) I'm cool with everyone and talking for the first 10 minutes or so..but I tend to "shut down" after that. I constantly analyze everyone around, wondering what they are thinking of me. If I do talk after that happens..I tend to mumble. Mostly due to the fact that I hate being the center of attention. After I get home, I zone out thinking about all of the things they could have been thinking of me..what I could have done/said different to make myself 'fit in'. It's painful to be social, it's painful to withdraw from everyone. I'm 20, and I feel that my life is already over. I'm being set up with a T in a couple of weeks..this will be my first time seeing one. I don't know what to expect, or if I will be able to stick with it. Sorry for posting..

Hope everything is going well,
Chris.