At least you are seeing "what others do not know "how" to do". That is important so that you understand not to "blame self". The plan B right now needs to be learning how to "self care" inspite of how others "behave badly because they simply do not know how to be healthier and thoughtful". I am working on that myself, so I know it isn't easy and for me it is one day at a time and lots of patience on my part.

Do your best to take "time outs" and not allow yourself to "project a constant troubled future path". I know this is hard to do, but keep your mind in the present and find anything positive you can. That can be a walk, talking and listening with a child who might just need someone to listen and reminding self to stay in the moment and slow down.

((((Hugs)))))
Open Eyes