I am so full of anger, hostility, rage, hate, ...and i dont understand it. Its like anger beyond being mad yet i have to show calmness and stay collected because i dont want to start a fight with my fiance since he is the only one around. Im sitting here alone in my head filled with anger and dont know what to do or especially why i feel this way. I dont want to think its the new meds im taking so im not going there yet with that since ive only been taking them still less than a week. I dont know but i cant stand this i just want to cry feeling like this and not having anyone around me to just talk to. He doesnt understand my bipolar though he tries but its frustrating feeling like im different and alone well because i am. I am one screwed up person. Im full of mental debilities if thats a word. Its crushing sometimes. Sorry whoever is reading this if you cant follow. Im not sure how to vent on this or just understand whats even going on? I hope everyones had a good day and Merry Christmas to you all.