Yep and I am trying to relate to you as the person you are. I feel like you got a hold of a toy that's not for your age level. But not because you're dumb. It's just a really advanced toy or there is this part of you that is really advanced - as you say, you're not texting him every 5 minutes like some girls - anyway, not all your parts are in sync. It's like you need to wait for some of them to catch up, or else you'll get into trouble. Like a 10 year old genius in college. I don't know you well enough to know all your parts, but I can see how parents would have certain expectations and try to ignore what doesn't fit, leaving you to deal with it alone, unfortunately. It's like you need a mentor? To help focus all that energy and intelligence.