I'm so frustrated with myself right now. I just can't make or even keep friends. I'm too quiet and I hate it. No one likes to talk to me for that reason. I lost my phone the other day and got a new one. On Facebook I updated my status saying to message me for my number if anyone wanted it. No one messaged me.

Also my friend who I hang out with a lot is leaving me out of her plans now. In high school I would hang out with her and two other girls. Just recently she made plans with them, but left me out. I know because I saw them at the mall the other day and when I said hi they ran away. It made me really sad.

A few days ago I attempted suicide. Not just because of the friend issue though. I had some other reasons. I tried to overdose, but I just ended up with a cramped stomach. My dad was about to take me to the hospital, but my mom said "Just let her do it. Her gone will be less money for us to spend." They both walked away after that. Wtf? Why even have a child if you're going to think that later on?? In fact I just wish I would have never even been born. I'm sick of being miserable.