fayor,thanks again for your reply and support,I'm not angry or anything but disappointed that I only got one reply of support,it's such a good supportive site this and I feel a little left out,but no probs cause I'm going to beat the demons and take control and win anyway.I did think maybe ppl think I was manic when I wrote it which I was but I'm still determined that I can beat the downs(demons)sounds like I'm a bit loopy but demons is the best description I can think of.thanks again.