I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's sad to hear how cruel your parents are. You are worth knowing and someday you will find that special friend that will stick with you forever. I found that friend as a sophomore in high school, I thought she was mean and she thought I was a snob but when we got talking we realized that we had a lot in common.
Now she is one of the only people who knows even a little bit about my depression (other than my therapist of course).

Please don't despair too much. You are worth it. You will be able to find friends, sometimes it just takes time.

I hope you have a good holiday. Don't be too hard on yourself.