nikko,that's not a good life your living you poor thing,it doesnt sound like a good position to be in,out sounds like the way to go.I mean out of the relationship that is.no wonder your on a emotional roller coaster,who wouldn't be,hang in there,sorry you have so much cra# to have to deal with.good on you venting,go for yur life,thats what we all here for.luk to you.