Christmas is almost over. Less than a couple of hours to go. I've had quite a lot to drink but I feel fine (yay for no medication interacting with alcohol). I wonder if I crossed your mind once today. I'm sure I didn't. Particularly because of all the difficulties we've had recently, as soon as I woke up, I thought of you...and all of those struggles. The relatives house I was at this evening, I've been there before, but it was the first time I'd chosen to sit in the chair I chose tonight. It wasn't until I sat in it that I realised that it was exactly like the chair in your office. It was actually a bit more comfortable, super comfortable, but the height, angle, arms, everything was so similar. It was quite weird. That made me think of you (and it was like my safe place, very weird). I realised after a while that I was fidgeting with the arms of the chair in a way that I only do when I'm in your office (because I'm so uncomfortable talking about myself that I'm usually crawling out of my skin).

I hope you're well. I'm sure it would be a nice thing, a healthy thing, if you were busy enjoying yourself and not thinking about long term clients like me. This is going to be a long, long break for me....and I'm thinking of you, and really, I know you're not thinking of me. I wonder if you will read the card I made you, and what you'll think too. Perhaps you'll just realise that's it's as pathetic as I am.