I know how this feels. And it doesn't help that others think the aggression and dramatic behaviour is a sign that we are evil and attention seeking. I'm terribly terribly caring about others and I believe I'm a good person, but we can't help that this disorder casts a cloud over that. The good news is that some people are patient. Some people think we're worth it. I've got friends who I've said terrible things to - and even physically attacked - but they still think I'm worth coming back to. Some people understand we're ill and love us despite that.