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brackenbeard · Dec 25, 2012, 08:51 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

it just hit me that im not happy with my life.

i hate pitying myself but

i live in the rural with no one around. very few i mean. i live in a small house and know nobody. ive been depressed lately and having some weird life breakdown where i wish i had more to my life. i just cant bring myself to be around people anyway. its been like this for 4 and half years now where ive been in this location in this small house like this. by myself. i mean im with my dad but hes 65+.

i think it hit me because i talked to someone i hadnt in a very long time and they told me what they do in life to pass time. hang out with friends - go to school - etc. but im not involved with people like that and its hard to be. it turns out bad all the time. its just an extremely lonely life. i used to live in the city and i loved it because at least i could watch the people bike by or walk by. but here in the rural theres just nobody. i mean nobody. on top not knowing anyone anyway.

the loneliness is making me physically ill. maybe cause its stressing me out idk.

let's see... i mean if you want to hang out with people start doing things where you can meet people. go to the grocery store and try and strike up a conversation. don't think of it in terms of this person isn't going to like me, think of it as an excercise where you're slowly getting more accustomed to being around people. if it leads nowhere, no problem.

i have trouble interacting with people i just met, but the trick is listen. listen to them closely. people love to talk about themselves, and love someone who will listen.

your life feels empty. so does mine a lot of the time. i just try an fill the time with stuff i enjoy like drawing, or skateboarding. i think of it as a challenge to get better everyday, which makes me feel good.

i relate to the loneliness... but i have friends which bring me out of it. i think you can make friends if you want to. i think you can!