Emsky,
I didn't see your thread til now. I don't have any answers or pithy thoughts or even advice. But you sound very tired and run down. Fighting the fight IS tiring. Exhausting. It's a bit like trying to live life with a chronic case of the flu, it can be that debilitating.

I wish I could come and just nurture you and care for your for awhile while you rest. What I can do is keep you in my thoughts and prayers and listen if you want.

((((Emmie))))

gg