I often feel alone, i know people are around and are friends, but i still feel unable to open up to them about how i feel or about what bothers me. I am great at listening and helping others to sort out their problems, but when it comes to sorting out my own i am on my own! i think it comes from years of having to keep my feelings bottled up, not say anything to anyone about things that were going on at home that directly affected me and yet having to listen with contempt to my mother relive everything that upset her wheter i wanted to or not.

I found writing down the things which were bothering me a great help as i could then work through them in a logical way with a clear mind, though still do usually keep my worries to myself. after all what will be will be regardless of what i do or say.