Hi, sorry you are having so many unsettling symptoms. I can see how thinking about being home alone might cause you all these horrible panic attacks. I have experienced all of the things you experienced. Unless I'm too dizzy, what I try to do is move around and do something to get rid of the adrenaline faster. Practicing deep breathing everyday is supposed to help. You could also try to take a moment yourself each day and pamper yourself..aromatherapy, music therapy, meditation, hypnotherapy..anything that might make you feel more comfortable with yourself.