I know what you mean. Christmas in itself does not mean much to me. I have stated that very well in my previous posts on here. I do like the month of December as the decorations go up. Also people seem a little more cheerful. And then when it gets around Christmas, things seem to slow down more than usual. At where I live people go away, so it's nice and quiet. And I would anticipate a "Christmas Miracle", but that never happens!

When it's over, the decorations go down and it seems like it's back to reality. Normally for me, getting into the New Year, that's when I would go for physical check ups. They have been good for me in the past, but I wonder if this will be the year something will go wrong. I have a lot of health anxiety. This past year I had some health challenges. I'm supposed to have an colonoscopy this year.

I feel like I have more to dread than I do at having things to look forward to. This has been a not so good year for me. Things seem to be getting worse instead of better in every aspect of my life. I hope this will be a better year for me.