I just never feel like I am really of value. That's the point, I guess, and it's distortions that I use to keep maintaining that feeling of never really being of value.

I'm often afraid of being in trouble too, and of disapproval and rejection. Yes, I think there are distortions in there. All or nothing thinking because of the "always," but perhaps a bigger one is mind reading because being in trouble implies that you think you know what someone else thinks or feels. You said that you are reprimanded too. Care to elaborate on that? And if someone else did the same thing that you are doing, would they be in trouble? Would you feel like reprimanding them for it?