I was told a long time ago by my Pdoc, that he noticed I was probably Borderline. He said that the fact that I say one thing and than quickly change my mind about it resembles this personality problem.

I remember learning from my mom, bad habits on decision-making such as being agreeable with bill collectors and at the grocery store, or just shopping, or working with us children.

She could change her mind for no explainable reason at the split second. I learned that this was acceptable for me to act this way. Most of the days, I watch for these behaviors, but I know deep in my heart, I can't always control this decision-making behavior. I told my school councelors, "I am not going to school this quarter." After every one of my 5 friends accepted that information, I decided, yes, I am going to attend school. In other words, I sought a big reaction from as many as I could get it from to feel paid attention to and quite validated. I exibited a crisis mental state, got honored special attention, then went ahead to change my decision back to the orginal intention.

I have patterns of this behavior. I know it doesen't really hurt anyone, but, it could make me seem unreliable. It makes me seem unstable, and hysterical All of the Time.

I am thought to be "delicate," and everyone avoids topics with me that might "get me going." I rant and rave for an hour or two. I enjoy drawing all of this attention. I am a kind of pretty woman and I "do" absolutely believe it relates to my being somewhat Borderline. I enjoyed my dad's noticing me when I really needed affection and learned to act hurt and sick for extra attention at home.

This old habit has it's drawbacks. I get noticed too much and no one "wants to take me seriously." Beings that I am almost graduated from community college, I am worried about that aspect of my persoality and hope I can get therapy for it. It does need working on and want to know who has had successful "Borderline Therapy" and what to call the therapy and who to find on the internet or elsewhere that works well with healing the "borderline"

Anything is possible and as long as I have a new breath, and an opportunity to live another day, I want to work on getting more well. Borderline personalities are very valuable individuals and are worth it to work on improving ourselves. Never quit, never give up, no matter how hard it seems to look, you are still worth it and can one day make a great contribution to the world, so don't forget it. We are worth it! Do you have a story about borderline personality, good, bad, mediocre, or rotten. I would like to have dialogue and think if we feel our feeling on this subject we can maybe get insight to help one another. Did any of you think their parents had something to do with them getting to be borderline?