What a remarkable thread!

I like many others on here have suffered the heartache so deep that alcohol and depression consumed me for a long time too. I was 24 when it happened. When the man I loved more than anything whom which I spent 5 years with turned his back on me. I lived pain, breathed pain, drank my pain away and was at the bottom of every bottle.

So I know what you feel.

8 years later here I am at 32, and finally found someone to love. The truth is we will always feel alone. Sometimes I feel alone even though I am in this wonderful relationship. Its just who we are. We are born alone and we will die alone. The moments in between when we are not in someone's arms we have to be comfortable with. I am at peace in my solitude when I am alone now, because I have embraced it.

I was near death at that breakup 8 years ago, but I moved on. It took a lot of work and therapy, but I got there. Away from the desperation and fear. When fear lives in your heart, being alone can be a fate worse than death. We have to let go of that fear. That is how we move on and live. That's how we keep hope alive and not eat you from the inside out.

My biggest fear is what is written in my signature. Its a cage. Where I wilt away in old age. I know now that won't happen. I have hope. I didn't at one time. i was where you are. It will change. I promise. You have a lot to live for.