(((( Ajtgjm )))) Wow yeah it sounds like you're having a really hard time at the moment. I hope you got through Christmas alright on your own, it's not a good time to isolate I don't think.

How sad that other people see your withdrawal as down to laziness or overconfidence - are you not able to talk to anyone about how you feel? I see you have two friends, are you not very close with them to the point where you could try talking a bit about how you're doing? It's a risk but can be worth it.

Sorry too that you don't feel up to seeing a T - while therapy isn't the universal panacea it might seem, it can be really helpful to have someone there on our side even if it's really hard to be comfortable with them.

Being on a forum like this can be a good and a not so high risk form of people contact too so good on you for posting. And thank god for the internet eh?

Sunsetsunrise thanks for the links to other AvPD boards. I've tried joining them and one seems not to be open at all (can't even see how to join) another might be defunct now as I've been waiting for weeks for confirmation of membership and can't get in, and the third one (the first on the list) doesn't have much traffic (lol not unusual given it's AvPD).

What are the chatboards, are they different from the messageboards?

Torn