Hi,

Hope you are feeling a bit better now that 'Christmas' has passed and not giving yourself too much of a hard time. I too didn't make it to Church, managed to wrap presents 30 minutes before we were meant to leave for lunch. Still ended up 40 minutes late and as I was meant to bring the cherries and nuts for nibbles before the main meal, I wasn't too popular yesterday. I did manage to get a tree decorated of sorts this year - only because we've not had one up for 6 years and I kept it out for 3 weeks prior so we would remember to put it up. I also lost all supports (never had any really).

I was diagnosed with adhd last week. Ironically, I'm not sure if I have adhd or just add - don't think he was clear on that. Still not sure how a Doctor and diagnose after completing a 15 minute single page screening form. But it sure does sound like I have it as I tick all the boxes well and truly. I have mixed emotions of relief, renewed hope, grief at having lost 40 or so years of my life to this with every doctor and psychologist never picking it up. 40 years of trauma, failures, never being good enough all makes sense now. Apparently I survived due to a high IQ and the many varied survival mechanisms I had put into place (without even realising it) - just thought that was how everyone survived this tricky thing called life.

I think we may have a few things in common. Happy to 'chat' now and then. I understand your situation very well. Mine is quite similar. Single Mum to one child as well.

I commenced ritalin and productivity seemed better at first – oh to have had THAT focus 20 years ago when I started in the work place. Focussing on only about 10 things at a time now, not 1000. Creativity doesn't seem to have been affected (I was particularly worried about it being dulled somewhat ~ a good thing since I need it for my business).. Much of the sensory overload I was experiencing has lifted. Praise GOD! I now have a little peace inside my head - first time in about 20 years! Still working very long hours - but I'm tired at night for a change. I like it! Not much of an appetite - which is fine since I need to lose a few kilos.

Hope you are OK.