i have an immediate family member that she lives away from home far away. i see her maybe 2 times a year. been this way since i was 9. im 22 now. but we text every few days.

i dont talk to them about what i go through but they know my dx. when ive done stuff in my past that was psychotic they thought i was faking to get attention.

she thinks were extremely close. i mean we talk and have fun when she visits. but i dont feel close to her as i think she feels.

in fact she puts me in situations that i cant handle. total opposite of me.

idk um what do i do? i dont even feel close enough to talk about what i go through. thing is this problem spans half my lifetime and most of hers.