For a long time now I have been unable to successfully communicate with others and for friendships. It is totally on my part but I just never learn how to successfully be a friend or communicate with other on their level. This causes me many problems and usually as a result I never really speak to people or come across as abrupt and cold hearted. It's just I don’t have a clue and feel I will always make things sour and just don't know how to communicate with them. Either that or I end up in arguments with people or depress them. Or usually others from friendships out of hate of me and gossiping about the horrible person I am. Which really makes me hate other people and makes feel like there no point. Usually I fell I will cause problems if I try and normally like the last part above it always turns against me trying, so I don't but then I come unstuck when you have to communicate with other when I just don't get it and it always end the same way, a horrible mess. It's not that I don't have the ability or understanding of communicating with other because I am capable f that it's just I don’t know how to put to use my understanding and ability to communicate and successfully communicate with others on any level.
This causes countless problems with old school friends, work colleagues and a guy... you could call that sort of dating but that was another story all in past now all through my lack of be able to communicate with other on a normal level of some sort.
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