(((Big Mama))),

It's ok that you came and posted Christmas Eve, I have to admit, I was struggling alot this Christmas myself. I can also relate to being "annoyed with self" as well, me too. I can even relate to the agrument and the feeling of not being understood by H, me too.

I am glad that you got busy and got distracted enough to get through the holiday, I can raise my hand on that one as well.

Just keep letting yourself "observe" and keep working through it in therapy. Know that you will experience the symptoms of PTSD and keep learning ways to help yourself when that happens, I know it is a challenge.

I am glad you had PC to come to and vent, don't let that bother you, use it when you need it. Sorry I didn't get to post to you, I was struggling alot too, so you are not alone in that. If you are like me, today you are pretty exhausted.

((((Hugs))))
Open Eyes