I can't understand why I am always so depressed during this time of year. Always have been and I come to except that I probably always will be. There is however the undeniable fact that when I woke up this morning I magically felt a bit better. Not to say I'm that I don't have some symptoms of depression but I sense that the up side of my character is about to emerge again.
Am I happy about this? Can't say that I am reason being is because even after spending more than ¾ of this year in treatment taking my pharmaceuticals, meeting with my therapist on a regular basis and making amends with friends and family and doing what I can to make myself well I still find myself on this roller coaster ride fighting back the unmentionable thoughts that quite honestly scares the heck out of me.
So how do I feel? I am happy the season is coming to an end and yes I know that I will begin to start feeling less depressed for what ever that's worth because I can't say that I well yet.