How sad am I ? I'm ashamed to say I did NOTHING for Christmas. Absolutely ZILCH. Nothing was bought, no cards or presents.
My son bought food to make a christmas dinner, but I could not face even getting up, for that. I pursuaded him to leave me, take the food to his sister's house and cook it there for them two. His sister had no desire to see me, so she stayed outside, when she picked him up.
So it was another day in bed, no christmas, no christmas dinner. I ate a strawberry trifle, and opened a bottle of wine, they left me.
No one from my family rang to say happy christmas, not even my daughter. My Dad had sent me a card and inside was a cheque for me to treat myself.

My neighbour dropped a present by, unexpectedly on christmas eve. My only present, a box of chocs. I hadn't even sent him a card (or anyone) so I was quite embaressed. We don't usually exchange gifts. He just left it at my door so I didn't have to face him. ( I'd have never opened the door had he knocked, I look a right fright. Months in bed, rarely showering, etc ! Imagine the shame !)

So christmas passed me by.

I'm both extremely sad, and ashamed, to admit, just how I spent my christmas.