Thanks again, it is always helpful to get a different perspective. Of course, what I wrote above is the short version of a long story. I will try and get over the week as best as I can and have the discussion with the therapist. He already confirmed that he has many issues and needs to work both with me and a conselor on our relationship, and on his own issues in an individual therapy.
With him or without him, I want to find a way to feel good about myself and my life again, that's what I need help with.
I will send an update when I know more, after the appointment(s).
Hugs back :-)