I have four children, two from a previous marriage, a five year old stepson, and a two year old. I have also suffered from anxiety and depression for over ten years. My problem is this, my five year old and I do not get along. He has a learning disability and a speech problem, but all in all he is a good kid and a sweetheart. I love kids and have great relationships with my other three kids. Why can't we be close? He has never known another mom, I have always been there for him, I try soooo hard. It is soooo frustrating and I feel guilty. He is not abused or anything like that, I love kids, but he gets under my skin, I have to walk away. When I am feeling depressed it is even worse. I love him, he is my son, why can't I get this relationship right?