Dear T,

I hate therapy being normal. I hate it! I feel okay while I'm there with you and we're talking about my problems, but when I leave I feel depressed. Will the meds make me feel better? I felt good when I talked about my fun day yesterday, but when I left the session I just thought about how I can't be in your life. That hurts me very much. I don't know why but it does. I wanted to know where you were last week though I know it doesn't really matter. I just wanted to KNOW. I have to use radical acceptance because you don't want me to know about your life anymore. In my email, I said I wanted to know the name of your cat and dog, and that was stupid. I know I'm pathetic and sick. I'm glad I'm finally seeing a pdoc and I know you are too.

rainbow