If you really like how you are and don't want to change, then why in the world would you post on an anonymous message board asking for advice?

Seriously....this isn't the place for teen angst and drama. It's a forum for people with bipolar disorder, the vast majority of whom want to get better and are willing to work for it. Nobody hands us anything; we have to do the hard work, put in the blood, sweat, and tears, and CHANGE if we truly wish to live our best lives with this illness.

Some can do it without "drugs"; many of us can't. But if you are going to be closed-minded about meds, you deprive yourself of a treatment modality that happens to play a large part in managing the disorder for most patients. Not very wise, IMHO.

It also doesn't sound like you have an official diagnosis as yet. In fact, it seems that you're trying to self-diagnose and make your symptoms fit into a box, like a lot of people do when faced with a potentially life-changing disease. You may or may not be bipolar, but you won't know for sure until a mental health professional has evaluated you and given you a diagnosis. Sometimes it's not all that clear-cut; sometimes there are elements of other disorders overlapping the primary diagnosis. (For example, bipolar often coexists with borderline personality disorder, anxiety, and PTSD.)

Whatever you do, however, DON'T come to a discussion forum and tell everyone right off the bat that their opinions have no merit unless they agree with your own. No one's going to waste their time or energy giving advice to someone who's already decided they're not going to listen.