Jen,

I know that my words may feel insignificant and meaningless to you, at this time in your life. But, try to pull yourself back just a little bit.

Sometimes, there are some very deep lows that we have to push ourselves (grinding our teeth) through, but things will become more easy again ~ even some happy times! You have to keep pushing yourself though. Even if you don't like it. Do you know why? Because a lot of people do love you. They don't want to see you miserable, no. But they sure as heck don't want to see you take your life! That is the truth. Just because you are feeling peaceful with the decision, that does not mean that it's the right decision.

PLEASE get help NOW ~ you absolutely deserve and need help from professionals to get you through this really rough part of your life.