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Originally Posted by i'm trying
I don't know about the steel thing Mara ,it sounds so cold and unfeeling (which we know you are not)!, You don't need to "gets the guts up to go" you need to change that feeling to "isn't it wonderful hey, someone who actually knows how to diagnose BPD is finally going to see me  "what a relief" "iv'e been waiting for sooo long, it's finally happening, i'm going to feel so much better"!!! 2013 is going to be my lucky year, finally i get to do it!!! and you CAN and you WILL do it ok!!
get the diagnosis first and foremost mate, only then will you be able to think about starting to tackle the home support angle!!!! |
I was raised to have an ingrained, deep-rooted fear and distrust of therapists which I've worked very hard at getting over to do this. I know I can't do this on my own, particularly with no support at home. I want things to change more than anything and I really hope this is the first step to get there. I'm hoping for a new year where I can fight this and make some real ground and this is where it begins, but it's a very, very hard step to take. Everything in me is telling me to run, but I'm not. I know I have to do this.