Feelings are just feelings, they are not actions anymore than a dream is "real."

That being said, I identify with your feelings during your periods, I use to get suicidal during mine in my 20's and it didn't really help to know the thoughts and feelings would lessen in a couple days or a week. It's truly icky to feel so lousy for even 10 minutes! (((Rhapsody)))

Do you take any vitamins? I fiddled around with vitamins when I was in my 20's and a good B complex usually helps me feel better. But I would get in touch with and talk with your T, PDoc, regular Doc, somebody. See if they have some ideas of how to help with this crisis of the moment?