I need help i feel really miserable.
My boyfriend had been clean for a while
I never even knew what drugs were.
One day a month ago I didn't know he had gone back to smoking
And I found the pack and he did not care he pulled over and smoked one
In front of me he also was encouraging me to try one!!
I said no.
He said he'll stop if it bothers me that much.
A week ago he started getting high again
Before my birthday.. This is too much pain I can't take I'm terrified
First I'm really sad I don't want to go back to this again
I'm really scared what if one day he dieds from that stuff I can't bare
That... If I don't talk to him again and break up. I'm going to still be worried about him!! He said he's sorry that he learned his lesson.. But that doesn't matter... I have feelings too and it hurts a lot.
Now he's in rehab his parents sent him there.
The day he offered me the cigarette I asked if was going to seek help.
He laughed and said no why do I need help ?I enjoy smoking.

I love him I really do!! But I don't know if in strong enough to deal with a recovering drug addict....

Can someone share their story?
What's the best thing to do with someone like this?

How do i know if he really loves?
If he rather get High a night before my birthday and christmas without caring if i got upset and he Would lose.. Should i take that as a sign that he doesnt Care about me?
I'm scared